something has got to give. i'm just waiting to find out what. and how. and when. it might be subtle and painless or abrupt and catastrophic. but in any case a change can't be far off. it can't stay like this forever. this purgatory. this waiting. this idle, useless, unproductive state. something has got to give. this isn't a life, but some sick waiting room for people who aren't quite sure how to live.

i want something different. if only i knew what. and how to get it.